The assignment this week is to imagine the life of a flower from seed to bloom. It is a hard assignment for me.
I do not see well with my eyes closed; I have known of this limitation for many years.
When I use my imagination, the harder I try the less I see. I have learned about the Law of Relaxation: mental effort defeats itself. So this week I am using my imagination but not trying, while focusing on seeing. It is a hard assignment. I see progress.
I have experienced periods of effortless eyes open vivid imagination, so I know by experience it is possible. The chemo protocol is called R-CHOP. Each letter represents a chemical; R is for the ruby red one; very pretty to look at; nasty stuff; the nurse puts on protective clothing to hand-administer this one. I had the gift of imagining, at will, what I wanted to see, big-screen movie quality, after the first two or three infusions for the first two or three days; diminishing returns. Hint: probably in concert with benadryl. I experienced this effect during both my chemos.